// my idea of god is not a divine idea. it has to be shattered time after time. he shatters it himself || [ c.s. lewis, a grief observed ]
In my very, very short experience of life thus far, I’ve continually found the emotion of grief to be one of the hardest feelings understood and, in some ways, to feel. The other evening during my devotion, I read Job Chapter One. I love the account of Job. I admire his dedication and his strength to restrain himself from cursing God during his misfortune. This time, as I read chapter once again, I noticed a few things that haven’t been apparent in times before.
I want to give you an outline of what I noticed and then share the application from what I gleaned:
[ the observations ]
First, as shown in verse one, Job was doing right according to the Lord and he was in a long season of abundant blessing. If anyone needs an example of how to fulfill the role of steward, they only need look at Job. This man prayed and offered up sacrifices for the sins of his children! (Parenting goals!)
Second, a huge question arises for me in verse eight: In the conversation between God and Satan, why does God bring up the subject of Job to Satan? He seems to prompt the Devil’s test by (1). bringing up Job’s faithfulness and (2). readily agreeing to let Satan harm Job. What’s the motive? It seems rather like a cruel joke.
Third, an almost unreal occurrence of events unfolds. Four messengers approach Job, one after the other, bearing devastating news. Within the context of one chapter, nearly all of Job’s tangible possessions are destroyed without warning or explanation. Job barely has time to process the information of what one person has relayed to him before another courier arrives. With such an unheard of, unbelievable tragedy, it makes sense to me that Job should immediately ask: “What is God doing?”
[ the interpretations ]
Job’s first response captivates me. He does not ask the question I imagined. He does something I believe few have the strength to do: he worshiped. In unimaginable, plummeting sorrow, Job chose to praise the Lord. For him, that was his only option.
Previously, from what the reader can gather, Job had really only known the blessings of God. From this, he experienced God’s goodness. With his trial just beginning, Job’s view of his God shattered. Yet, he still knew God is good and is worthy to be worshiped.
To have the childlike faith of Job and to have his mindset should be the goal of anyone who claims to follow Christ. Our view of God should not fall into a four-cornered box, but should be continually shaped by His actions. The actions of the Lord always align with His written truths and promises. We only think they don’t because we don’t have God’s view of Himself—thus, why He must shatter our view.
[ au revoir, hannah ]